Catharsis

I've never claimed to be a socio/aspie/whatever, anything but somewhat fucked up (as I'm sure everybody is in their own way). But I recently realised something, and this may be a completely 'normal' realisation. I realised why I find going clubbing so cathartic: It's so simple.

We're all allowed a moment of self-discovery, I should have realised this awhile ago so I guess this is mine.

Obviously when things like one night stands and “picking up chicks” get involved, it all stops being simple and become humanly complicated, but when it's just dancing, when you are simply following the music, then it's so simple. You don't need to really pay attention to the people around you, and that's what's so enjoyable about it: Being able to be around people, fit in amongst them, and not actually pay more than a cursory attention to them. It's so easy, so simple compared to standard social interaction. Sometimes I wonder if that's what it's like for a normal person 24/7, if it is then I pity them. But as a short-term experience?

Every other aspect of my social life, hell even my hobbies and career, require me to be intellectually on my toes, constantly thinking and plotting. I wouldn't have it any other way. But occasionally, this last link to real humanity is exactly what the doctor ordered for poor emotion-numb me.

Quite frankly, it's cathartic because it's one of the few times Pinocchio can pretend to be a real boy whilst barely even trying.

Music: Bloody Cape by Deftones

"We could be... soon as our needs are fed,
You'll give in to me and the whole heartache,
Makes me feel alive,
Same typical offering."

An immodest man squanders his debts, a modest man counts them,

A wise man collects them.

Aesop's Fables

The Wolf and the Lamb
A Wolf, meeting with a Lamb astray from the fold, resolved not to lay violent hands on him, but to find some plea to justify to the Lamb the Wolf's right to eat him. He thus addressed him: "Sirrah, last year you grossly insulted me." "Indeed," bleated the Lamb in a mournful tone of voice, "I was not then born." Then said the Wolf, "You feed in my pasture." "No, good sir," replied the Lamb, "I have not yet tasted grass." Again said the Wolf, "You drink of my well." "No," exclaimed the Lamb, "I never yet drank water, for as yet my mother's milk is both food and drink to me." Upon which the Wolf seized him and ate him up, saying, "Well! I won't remain supperless, even though you refute every one of my imputations."
Moral: The tyrant will always find a pretext for his tyranny.

The Bat and the Weasels
A Bat who fell upon the ground and was caught by a Weasel pleaded to be spared his life. The Weasel refused, saying that he was by nature the enemy of all birds. The Bat assured him that he was not a bird, but a mouse, and thus was set free. Shortly afterwards the Bat again fell to the ground and was caught by another Weasel, whom he likewise entreated not to eat him. The Weasel said that he had a special hostility to mice. The Bat assured him that he was not a mouse, but a bat, and thus a second time escaped.
Moral: It is wise to turn circumstances to good account.

The Bat freely says what he needs to get out of situations that could damage him, and is apparently the hero. The Wolf looks for any reason to justify to himself, and is apparently the villain. Is it just me or is the moral of these two stories combined simple.

Moral: Lie, Cheat, Steal, Abuse the truth, pretend to be something you are not, do whatever you need to come out on top.

I approve.

Music: Everything You Touch by Ladytron

"What you touch, you do not feel,
Do not know what you steal.
Destroy everything you touch today,
Please destroy me this way."

Quote of the Holy Sporadic Updates, Batman

"Conscience is but a word that cowards use,
Devis'd at first to keep the strong in awe"
Richard III, Act 5, scene 3

Or a modernised take on it: "Conscience is just the name cowards give their fears".

Victory

"Somewhere between 'villain of the week' and 'good triumphs over evil' there's a sweet spot where guys like me get to rule the roost for years. So long as I go into this accepting the price I may eventually pay, then I win - no matter what actually happens."

I have to say, I like this guy's (the grey haired one) logic. Let's face it, who among us hasn't done something knowing it would end in a painful manner, but be a hell of a lot of fun until that inevitable end.